That was the saddest
day of my life when my beloved mother passed away. The person that I love the
most, that I care and put my heart for the reason I’m living has left me
forever and never returns. I and my siblings lost my beloved mother on the 24th
of April 2000. My mother passed away at the home on at 9.40 a.m due to
brain cancer. My mother left me and my siblings at her 37 years old age while I
am going to have my 6th birthday just four months after that. Everyone
is around during that sad day, my brothers ,sisters and my younger sister, my cousins, my aunties and uncles, and my
mother’s friends also attend that day.
On the last breath, my
babysitter called my kindergarten teacher telling that we have lost her. She was the reason I’m striving to live a
successful life. She was always hoping that one day I’ll live a successful
life. She loves me the most and I knew it. My babysitter told me when I’m grew,
she told me that my mother loves me a
lot than my other siblings. That was a very touching moment for me.
I remember everything
about mom, most of them are good things, things that are full of lesson
whenever she’s around and the thing that I’ll never forget is how she shows her
affection towards me. When I’m was still child, I swore to my mom that I’ll
never let someone hurt her but now there’s nothing that I can do to protect
her, Allah loves her better than I am and took her away in front of my eyes. I’m
was childish when my mother passed away. After few years she left world, I cried for like I never cried before, there’s
nothing that can hold my sadness this time.
That day was the
saddest day of my life, it’s like the end of everything to me and it really
broke my heart and spirit to live. I tried to avoid myself from crying but the
more I try, the more I want to and the more flashes of memories of my mom come
towards me. It really hard for me
to let her go, harder than I can imagine when mom shuttle to the hospital with
my uncle’s to went Penang Specialist
Hospital when she got brain cancer a few years before she passed away.
No matter what, I need
to let her go and that’s why I choose to write about it. Goodbye Mama for now,
I will see you again next time in Paradise Gardens. I will come to you. I LOVE
YOU MAMA !
